Well, well, well......I don't know where to begin. Somewhere over the course of the last few weeks I have lost who I am and then found it again. But then again I don't think I ever really knew my true place unless I was near a certain friend, but then I never got to actually be physically there until quite recently, so I guess I am on the road to knowing exactly what I want out of life. I have lost a lot of things over the past few weeks. I lost a good friend at least I lost touch, which scares me cause I dont want to know what might actually have happened to him. Also I did get one good thing, a friend of three years has come back from being gone, and broughtgood things to my life, I only hope he sticks around this time long enough for things to work out. But moving slow has always been a priority although I never, mean for things to heat up like they do, sometimes things get to out of hand but there are always consequences and this time I see them and I am jumping back,...............jumping way back ..................for fear.