It hurt.....alot. But I cant go on only seeing him one day a week, and having it be day where i cry myself to sleep. I cant hurt anymore. One thing is for certain, I will always care about him no matter what, but at the moment I can't take that chance....it just hurts, had he asked me about 3 weeks ago, i might be in a different situation and other circumstances. Yet it didnt happen then , it happened now, after an accident, and I just want him to know I care and I always will but right now I cant do it.

On another note, my mode of transport to school most likely is going to be shutting down.....therefore I am concerned about how I am going to be able to get up there and stuff. Oh well I have Catalina coming up... I can get away from everything and think with a clear head...hopefully I will come back with some new understandings and a better view on things,....i usually do :-)