aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! Damn Psychology!!! I wish teachers would learn how to word their questions so that they are answerable when it comes time for the tests. Oh well at least its one test down four more to go in that class. I guess my major lesson though is start reading before the day of the test so that you dont stay up forever reading 141 pages of boring nonsense. Plus the day couldnt get any better, my Sociology teacher decided not to show up so I could have slept in a little longer to have actually 3 hrs of full sleep....lol, and then coming home my train was delayed....so after getting out of a 2:15 class i dont actually get home from a school that is about 30 mins from my house, until 3 hours later....arg i hate public transportation sometime! OKay positive....think positive....

One thing positive is that I have an inkling as to what I am getting someone for their birthday , but I have to figure out if its actually possible first.

Plans for spring break and summer seem to be falling through....no one wants to go with me.. :-( oh well i guess thats whats gonna happen then.... I am giving my two weeks tomorrow at work cause I am too overwhelmed with work and whatnot, but if I buckle and not give it, someone better kick me....

well i am hitting the hay, cause i am exhausted and my brain is fried from studying......gnight and sweet dreams to all....

OMG...today is the TEST,,, my psych teacher has proclaimed since day one that this test more than 50% of the past few semesters, students have failed this first test. It has gotten me so stressed, because half is from his lectures the other half is from the book, and I hate to read, like i can always ace tests without having to read the books, but this class looks like i might actually have to read for!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay more soothing news,......I still cant figure out my choice either between cancun or australia for my summer vacation. It would be an easier decision if someone would come with me...hint hint wink wink....you know who you are.....but you probably can't since you will have school. Well I guess thats your loss cause I plan on doing naughty things on the beaches of wherever I plan on going......jk well maybe i am not kidding..... ;-) anyways i must gets some rest before this test.....

until the next day.....luv diabloangel

to leave you with one of my fav.. quotes.....
"It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone."

It's a day to celebrate, the burden has been lifted off my shoulders....Quinn has come back from the "dead"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All I can say is that I am relieved, I have been scared shitless these past month as to where he had gone and if he had made it home, but no word from him, i had no way of getting ahold of him. Then today as I get home, type my passwrod in to unlock my comuter screen, i notice i got a message on my yahoo messenger......OMG its him, hes alive!!!!!!!!!!!! I almost fell over in my chair I was so happy. My best friend has come back now my life is almost normal again. Yeah! One less worry upon my shoulders. Thank you to all who helped me pull through and kept telling me he was alive.

I Love you all.

Okay so the doctors was fine, but who knows what happenes at the doctors offices, maybe its a conspiracy and they are just seeing whats wrong and covering it up just so they wont have any problems with there system....i am kidding i felt like coming up with another conspiracy theory obviously that wasnt such a good one but oh well. So anyways on with life, I am getting back on track with school, only because I have five hours to killl this morning at school inbetween my dr. appt and my only class.....astronomy....the stupidy i feel eminating from that room because the teacher is a dimwit...no not really i just feel like i didt want to give myself a challenge so i took that class. anyways oh yeah i dont' feel like much punctuation or capitalizing today, cause i have to write a essay ina little bit so i dont want to have use correct anything unless absolutely necessary... :-) OK i am sorry i am tired and am rambling on about nothing, but wait isnt that what these things are for is for me to ramble and you to read, but i guess thats what we do when we are bored or have extra time. I truely believe that not many people come here and read about my life troubles but thats ok because this easier than a diary becuase i dont truely have to confront the people that sneak a peek at what i wrote, but then i write things in code sometimes so that people knowing me who read things on here cant tell if its about them or not unless i put there name on it and give them a face. I see that all everyone thinks about these days is what everyone else is doing , so the can spread some gossip about others so they dont have to worry about the gossip of themselves. Rambling again.......ok so life couldnt be better school is chaotic, i am seeing someone i havent seen in over a yr and a half, i live at home still ;-( jk thats not such a bad thing, my best friend is still lost, i have still had no contact with him, i am about to give my two weeks at work becuase its so chaotic and they demand to much from in terms of hours and what i do when i am there. But hey it cant get any worse it can ony get better .....right.....wrong.....i might have cancer when i am old...i might have diabetes (recent knowledge that my mother felt i should know before going to the doctors today) i am switching majors again only cause i cant figure out what life's meaning is for me and then i cant figure out one to choose, i think i am going to go for communicatins, cause that what i am good at right.....? who knows i only know life must get better than this, at least i know i saw a few glimpses of it while staying over at a friends house last week... :-) you know who you are ;-) well i must be off 4 hrs left to kill....that is such a sad phrase...to kill time.... i wish i didnt have to... oh well another day to drag through....till next time....

everyone go stare at a salvador dali picture and you'll see how your life isnt so bad....

Well, well, well......I don't know where to begin. Somewhere over the course of the last few weeks I have lost who I am and then found it again. But then again I don't think I ever really knew my true place unless I was near a certain friend, but then I never got to actually be physically there until quite recently, so I guess I am on the road to knowing exactly what I want out of life. I have lost a lot of things over the past few weeks. I lost a good friend at least I lost touch, which scares me cause I dont want to know what might actually have happened to him. Also I did get one good thing, a friend of three years has come back from being gone, and broughtgood things to my life, I only hope he sticks around this time long enough for things to work out. But moving slow has always been a priority although I never, mean for things to heat up like they do, sometimes things get to out of hand but there are always consequences and this time I see them and I am jumping back,...............jumping way back ..................for fear.

Well, lets see.....its the end of the second week of school and , man this is gonna be an interesting semester.... Work has now officially cut me down to only 15 hrs a week ( but it really isnt during the week that I work....its fri, sat, sun...arg) oh well. life is once again complicated. I thought things were changing for the better but it seems that i made another u-turn and i am straying away from people in my life and being more introverted and disclosed. I think this is due to some events with a friend of mine from colorado that I am scared for.... but then it also might be due to the fact that another friend of 3 yrs has come back from being mysteriously disappeared. Way too many things running through my mind at once. I hope that if you are close to me that you know that I am gonna need the space right now only cause i feel like things falling apart again.... I am gonna have to step back and try and hold on to what i know and can and just hope that my world doesnt crumble like it has before. Although the only people I am keeping close are those that I know can't hurt me, and have pulled me through these crappy times before....thanks you pavi, scott, kerry, ian and tamara

Good day all. Well school is going to be starting in less than 2 days, and I cant wait! I have been so bored lately, due to hour cuts at work so I have all this free time yet I am so bored with the internet and games, etc that I need something else. Having a date every few nights helps and they always put me in a good mood but I think I just need more. I dunno what it is. I think it is the lack of events in my life or maybe that I am not involved in theatre anymore at the moment and that used to be what I lived off of. Who knows. Hopefully a certain person can help change my life around and I can be happier and live a better life. Otherwise I might be back on the same path I was a few years previous. Which wasnt a good thing. Well until the next when I am so deliriously tired and bored.