Valentine's Day is El Sucko

Today sucks!

I normally do not care about Valentine's Day. I never really had anyone in my life that would be considered a Valentine until I started dating (which was late in life anyways.) The first real relationship that actually occurred over Feb. 14th was with Ian, and has been with Ian for the past several years.

I don't expect much, mainly cause I never got anything before, and therefore figured I wasn't special enough.

Ian has been good about doing the conventional gift/card/flowers thing. Me being me, I always try and stray from the norm on present giving, and try to give unique gifts, that show some thought process and care went into the gift. I know this doesn't bode well for some people, but some personalization of gifts is a good thing.

But today, and just lately things have become stagnant. In the fact that there is no real effort to get things done. This is not just in gift giving, this also applies to life and events surrounding that, do or don't happen.

We are approaching 5 years soon. In a good percentage of the population, there would be some form of committment by this time, and usually earlier than a half a decade into the relationship at that. There have been folks that think living together prior to getting marriage is good/bad/incorrect order of things; I have been lately getting the idea that living together prior to comittment has actually made him more comfortable in our current situation, and thus not wanting to pursue the next step.